Am I stupid or what?!

Yo!
Well I am kinda lazy to continue this blog after what have been told to me.but if im feeling ok maybe ill continue writing
Well I dont want to express it here because I already let it all out to my friend Francis who kinda help me get through this but Im gonna say something..
First thing I wanna say Im sorry to francis..

To Francis : Im sorry bro but still call her eventhough u told me to "buat bodo" but I just cant because she keeps coming back to me in my head.If u wanna say im stupid well u can say that but sometimes stupidity gets u closer to the answer.Sorry man!

"FATE SUCCUMBS MANY SPECIES,
ONE ALONE JEOPARDISES ITSELF"

Heartbeat? @ Heartache?

How can I start this?
(deep sigh)
dont feel like sleeping
in fact more to crying
but tears are just shameful drops of water
My heart feels like nothing's right anymore
I guess this is the time when I stop laughing
Is it time for another 5 years without love?
I guess maybe Im being too hopeful
I know how it is gonna turnout
but i keep on trying
keep on breaking my heart
by trying so hard
that all the pieces have turned to dust
There's no other girl that I want to love
only u
I swear
Even if there someone else out there
all I want is u
u are the first and last
no more love for me.
Dont pity me,people.
I'll survive alone.
I was about to ask her to promise me that whatever happens
she will not leave me but
then she was disconnected
I kinda pretend I was laughing
before she went to slumber
It is really painful when she said it
Maybe what my little sister was right
she warn me but i still believe in love crap
Leave me be..
but
how could I forget her
I am addicted to her voice
(crying)
I'll never love another as much as u
I love u forever.

(ABAIKAN);]

Typically unknown

My feeling are all mixed up,
I dont know why i keep opening ur profile,
wishing that u will be there,
today a non-typical girl told me,
"emir thats normal nothing special she said"
because i asked her how does she feels if a guy called her,
and how she reacts but her answer was different from
my situation.
Then i kinda of tell her a lil bit of my story,
then that when she said it was normal dude
you aint that special.
I dont want to believe it but I have my own curiosity,
that i need to discover on my own.
So I asked myself 'i can survive for 5 years,why not this time?'
Aint no way this time Im giving up
I dont want to be a coward anymore
thats not me.
I now truly believe that this time Im really in love with only one girl.
She really changed me..
Btw dude STOP MEREPEK BOLEH X?
JAGA MULUT KAU!-kepada diri sendiri.
HAHA




Courage is not the absence of fear but the judgement of something important T-T.

EMIR ZAKI-22/7.

Hiding ME

I woke up this morning
and realize it was gonna be another dreadful day.
I think the neutralization thing is true
I kinda feeling it now
eventhough im in love with you.
Its just that I dont want anymore holes to be carved in my heart
There's already many empty holes in my heart
Its hurting me everytime I think of my past
but youre my future and I want to stick with you
because I love you so
and you light up my life with your smile.

Eleena I Love you..[Hahaha]
;]

Coke day

I'm feeling estatic today
never thought a day would end up like this
I think i messed up a bit
I talk a lot of bullshitt
because I was like so shy that my jaws wont even open
I cant even look at her
But when she stared dude Im telling ya
Im so loving it..
HAHA
Eventhough im kinda of jealous a little
bcoz she is going to do a "love scene" with someone that i dont know
and I dont want to know

"I wanna I wanna touch u
U wanna touch me too
everyday but all I have is time
our loves the perfect crime

Take everything that i know u'll break
and I give my life away
so far for u
but can u hear me say dont throw me away
there's no way out
I gonna hold u somehow"

Pressure?!

I want to get rid of this sensitivity
Sad,jealous and anger
took over my soul.
I longed for freedom
No tears no heartbroken no anger
but that will never happen.

Somebody kill me
but I dont wanna die yet
bcoz she is still alive
so i must continue living because
I love her.

Eventhough I feel like Im hurting myself
for loving her
but I'll take the risk
no matter what.

Heartless Saturday

Like a piercing needle
A scream ram through my eardrums
as tears of depression drops down my face
dark cloud fills up the bright morning sunshine
creating a sorrowful surrounding
i never thought i will lay in tears again
i hated this feeling
As i lay alone in the darkness of my room
her smile,her voice appeared in my mind
a smile and laughter seems to calm me down
I miss her.

A sign of forgiveness was shown by the foreign enemy
so apology was accepted
but this day will never be another day like others.

Why love?

Can somebody tell me why LOVE?
Why aren't other words use to describe this feeling?
So many questions so little time
Where to start?
An unknown road
Finding it, is easy
Losing it, is painful
So painful that u are tired of it
but there always must be someone
that will drive u back to the unknown road
but thou will bring u eternal happiness.
PEACE yaww~~

Seconds of today!

You're the One
you makes me think of u every sec of my life
u carve a smile on my face everytime i think of u
when i drink my coffee the aroma reminds me of u
I wish that the phone have no bill so i can hear your sweet voice in my ears
i wish everytime i wake up
u'll be beside me smiling.

Cool Cool!

Today I break my time record with 60 minutes on the phone.
It is superb,babe!
I am gonna do some sin today
because tomorrow is the starting of the fasting month.
I aint gonna regret it.
I sleep a lot today!
We have dinner at Sheraton Boring Hotel.
There wasn't much food that interested me there

MTS

SOLID SNAKE

Thanks to Eleena.This book was a BLAST!
Eventhough i have not finish it.
Haha.

Life changing

As Love struck thee one comes,
changes every inch of thou life,
scripting a smile on thou scarred face,
never a second thou can forget her voice,
thee one is thou most priceless piece of treasure,
thousands words a

Newborn blogger

Life is not what it seems
Surprises surrounds us like flies on our food
Love are not supposed to be toyed and played
People come and go but we are still here
I want to continue living until i know what is the purpose of me living
as a HUMAN.